Life After Loss

You know how sometimes you have those days where one bad thing just happens after another and you think how could all this be possibly happening in one day? Today was kind of like that for me. First, I dropped my phone--in the toilet. Yeah, had to place a claim to get a new one. Then, I was all excited to eat my chicken and rice (yummy!), but I needed to eat at my desk since I didn't have a working phone and the clock in the break room is broken. No big deal. I gather up my stuff and head on upstairs. Anyone who knows me knows I'm the BIGGEST klutz in the world. Yep, I fell (going up the stairs, not even down) and bam, I watch in slow motion as my chicken and rice fly through the air. All of it. None was savable.  So somehow I managed to laugh this all off. It got me thinking, I haven't had a day like this in a long time. I've had way to many horrible days, but not where it's these random individual events. Then I smiled. The old Heather would hav...

Everytime I read about another innocent child passing, my heart breaks all over again. There's absolutely no words that can comfort a grieving parent. The best thing you can do is just be there for them. Listen to them. Many times they won't make sense, but just talking helps tremendously. I wish that doctors had more answers. So many times parents are left questioning why. Why us? Why our baby? Why did this happen? Unfortunately, there's not always answers so all you can do as a parent is accept it. You can accept it one day, and then suddenly the next day you can't anymore. There is no getting better. All there is are good days and bad days. And you feel relieved if 2 good days are strung together. It's strange how quickly your mind takes you back to day you lost your child. I can so vividly see everyone in our home again. My aunts and uncles. My Alvin Sam. My mom and Gonz. I remember exactly what Arianna was wearing. I remember one second ...